I lean back, as the evening darkens and comes on
A chicken hawk floats over, looking for home.
I have wasted my life.
James Wright, Lying in a Hammock at William Duffy’s Farm in Pine Island, Minnesota
“FULL moon tonight?”
“Ozzy, you didn’t even look up!”
“No, you didn’t!”
Aurangzeb put down the cigarette and lay back with his hands behind his neck.
“It’s a fucking moon,” he laughed. “It’s a fucking moon! It’s fucking stars! It’s a fucking bee-u-tiful night! And here I am,” he said, passing the paper bag to Shahreyar. “Here I am, stuck with fucking you!”
Shahreyar shook his head and smiled as he opened the paper bag. Inside were three glass bottles. They clinked as he took them out and placed them on the cold concrete floor of the roof. Carefully, he opened one, sniffed it and took a long, long swig. The warmth did much to fortify him against the cold.
“We’re gonna be kings, right?”
“We’re gonna be kings, jaani.”
A plane flew past, sleepy lights blinking into the night. They watched it until they couldn’t.
“And if we aren’t?”
“We will be.”
“How do you know? I mean, school was—”
“Fuck school! This is college, Ozzy! It’s gonna be different.”
“Yeah! It’s gonna be what we make it. It’s gonna be whatever we make it.”
Aurangzeb sat up with a start. He stood and mouthed the words to himself as he paced back and forth in a tight pattern.
“I’m always right.”
They laughed and wrestled for a bit until someone kicked a bottle over and spilt the whiskey onto the roof.
“We better clean that shit up before someone comes up here!”
“No one comes up here,” said Shahreyar. But he went down to fetch some water.
Aurangzeb stood up and walked to the stone railing and leaned against it. He lit another cigarette. He heard Shahreyar come up the old stairs, push open the rusted door and pour a pitcher of water over the spilt whiskey.
Shahreyar put down the pitcher, picked up another bottle and walked towards Aurangzeb.
“Bismillah,” he said, opening the seal.
“You bastard! You’re going to hell for that!”
“A Jug of Wine, a Loaf of Bread—and Thou—”
“What’s that? Ghalib?”
“It’s Khayyám, dumbass!”
“Well whoever it is, he ain’t gonna save you from eternal hellfire. You better enjoy this winter while you can, beta.”
“We’ll see,” Shahreyar winked.
Aurangzeb shook his head and suppressed a smile.
They leaned against the railing and took long swigs from the bottles and watched the lights of the old amusement park flicker in the distance. The Ferris wheel stood out against the star-washed sky.
“Chai ka mood hai? Wanna grab some tea?”
“As long as it’s on you, jaani.”
They picked up the bottles and wrapped them in the paper bag and carefully shut the roof’s door.
Behind them, the lights of the Ferris wheel blinked out for the night.